Friday, December 18, 2009


I've been struggling this year to get into the Christmas spirit. Things have been crazy stressful and just all overwhelming. I lost my job, but before that I was struggling with being a full time worker and still a full time mother. I felt like my family was falling apart... Jared was struggling in school and I just missed my children and my husband. Mike and my schedule was never the same because we were trying to make it work for our children to not be in daycare or whatever to much!

So I guess this Christmas my gift is losing or quiting my job. It's going to make things TIGHT for the time being. But I guess the reward is that our kids will not have someone else watching them (although I am thankful for the people who helped care for our children)... I love nothing more than to be here full time for my children and to be able to care for my home. This is the job I love, this is the only job I want.

I need to take a step back and reflect on the things I have. I FINALLY have my own home, I have a healthy and happy family and I have life... Life is good! We have a roof over our head and although it's not always the best food, we have food in our bellies!!!

I told Mike the other day that since I lost my job I don't really want anything for Christmas... and he thought I was joking and part of me questioned what I was saying, who doesn't love getting presents? But my presents are already here and I love love love my family!!! I think everyone including my family has lost what Christmas is all about. I hate feeling like I have to get someone the best gift, something they really want. But honestly what it's about is being with your family. I like to get people gifts with meaning and thought. So I hope whoever reads this knows what their gift meant from us... and I hope that you love it as much as we love you!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009


So I no longer have a job. It wasn't something that came easy or hard for that matter.

Lets just say that what I took on was UNREALISTIC and pisses me off to think of the things that were expected... especially in the two worst months of the year for sales.


Lets just pray I find better!

Thursday, November 12, 2009


I know I've been gone for a while from blogging... but I've been so busy with working now and when I'm home I try to be home with the kids and the hubby! I promise once we get into the swing of things I'll be back!

Until then, I miss you all!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Our life is changing,

and I hope it all works out.

So tomorrow I start my new job. I have to hit the ground running and it's going to consume me and I'm so very nervous. My daughter and I have a very close and wonderful relationship and I do not want for that to change. I don't want her to hate me for not being around and I don't want her to be mad that she has to go hang with someone else. I hope that this person who is going to be watching my daughter will love her and cuddle her and make her feel ok.

I have so many worries and I just pray with all my heart that this doesn't hurt my family in anyway at all.

Here's to HOPE!!!

Sunday, October 25, 2009


Does life stop throwing all the damn curve balls? I'm tired of going with the punches, I am gonna start punching back!

Friday, October 23, 2009

Oh the joys,

of being sick!

I think the stress of all the stuff that was going on finally caught up to me. I've been sick since I think Tuesday morning. But Tuesday morning I found out that I got the job. YES!!! I will be working at American Family Insurance, as a Marketing/Sales rep. I'm sorta excited about this, we'll just have to see how everyone adjusts.

So anyway there is a little update. Sorry not a big one but whatever I got really took me out. I was feeling a little better today and since we've had no food since I've been sick I thought I'd go to Walmart to tackle that. Half way through the trip I realized that was a bad idea because I was feeling crappy. It goes in waves, but if I do to much then I can tell. And since I just cleaned the whole downstairs because no one else in my family decided it was important enough. I feel like crap. So back to the couch to rest!

As far as the job goes I start on the 2nd. One more week!

Sunday, October 18, 2009


Did you know that it's almost impossible to get a job today is this market, or any market?

Well I'm hear to tell you that it is crazy ridiculous. I have been trying since I don't even know when to get a job. It was either right before or right after we got our house. I have driven around on several different days dropping of my resume. I've had several interviews. Some to witch I left very pissed off because they weren't even hiring until May or for 3-6 months. Why did you waste my time?

I have had 2 interviews with the current company I am trying to get a job with... and everything is standing still on something that is on my credit and I guess has been since 2005. I have to get it removed before they will give me a job offer. Now this said item should not be on there. I called the company and explained the situation and told them I have documentation stating it should not be on there. So far I've spoken to at least 5+ people each one telling me different things. I've faxed said documents 3+ times and they've only received them once. They said they will take care of it when they can, but MY JOB DEPENDS ON IT. I asked if they could supply me with a letter stating this would be taken care of, they tell me there is no such letter. WHAT?

So not sure where to go from here, but I'm just frustrated with this whole situation. From having to get a job to the issues I'm dealing with at the moment. I realize that it's the economy, but really can't I just get a break. I've been so overwhelmed and stressed, it's just crazy!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Beautifully imperfect...

I wish I could get this video I saw on facebook over to my blog. But for now I'll just state that sometimes it's the little things that bring things into perspective. This short little clip was a funeral and the wife came up to talk about her husband. But she didn't want to talk about all the great things about him. She wanted to talk about how he snored at night and farted at night. And then when he became ill it was the only thing that let her know that he was still alive.

It makes you take a step back and look at life and look and the little things in life. Do you ever find yourself just going through the motions and living life and not taking a step back to realize what life is all about? It's about ALL the small things, the little things that make life worth living.

Yes the things your husband does may bug the crap out of you. But Mike often says to me, "you'll miss it once I'm gone!" And truthfully I would. If Mike were gone it would break my heart to not have him to kick at night for snoring... I would be so sad that I wouldn't laugh every time he looked up at the sun just to make himself sneeze. I would miss the smell of his yucky spit after such said sneeze. And believe me there are a ton of other things I could post about what he does! :)

Sometimes I catch myself getting to wrapped up in the day to day grind, and the day to day stresses that just consume me... that I'm not able to just take in the things that I would miss if they were gone. So today I think I'm gonna slow down a little bit and enjoy my kids and just be happy in the moment and not worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will be here soon enough!!!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

uhh, not good!


Sorry needed to vent, really frustrated with myself and life at the moment. I hate money and all the things that follow it!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Look inside...

Here are some pictures of the inside of our house. It's not all put together but I wanted you guys to see my lovely house. The first picture is when you walk in the front door, the stairs are on the right. The 2nd picture is the front door. The 3rd picture is the view into the living room looking from the kitchen. The last picture is the view into the kitchen from the living room.

One of my favorites!

Here is a picture of me and my kiddo's on my birthday!!! I absolutely love this picture!!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009


So as some know my birthday was on the 25th and I turned the big 29... that means that next year I turn 30. I've never really thought it was that big of a deal to turn 30. But yesterday when Mike and I were driving around at garage sales and shopping for stuff for our house it hit me so hard that I sorta had a mini anxiety attack!

It took my breath away!

30 is a big deal, and I don't know why. You go from the 20's when for so long I've felt like such a kid. But when you think of 30 you are actually an adult. I mean I've been an adult well for as long as I've had a child. I had Jared when I was 21 and I seriously had to grow up fast when I had him. But all these changes this year have put things into perspective for me. You can't blame stupid decisions on "oh I'm still in my 2o's"... and the list could go on. But now 30 means you are closer to 40 and closer to 50 and oh my gosh my life is flashing before my very eyes.


Monday, September 7, 2009

We made it...

We are finally in our home, OUR HOME!!! We are close to unpacked, but still have to put things up on the walls. We've finally got our bed put up, and Anna's bed put up... we are working on night three (tonight) of getting my little lady to sleep in her own bed. I've had to make a temporary bed on the floor below her so we can work on this. The 1st night she fell out of bed twice. So I eventually end up sleeping on the floor after about 10 or more trips to reassure her that it's ok!

I LOVE my house... it doesn't feel like home just yet, but we are working on it. But I do so much love love love my house. I never knew what it would feel like to "own" my own home, but it is very different than renting, for sure!

On a fun note (hahaha). We had to take Annalise to the ER the other night. We have 3 steps up from the back patio to our slider door... it drops off to either side and isn't the biggest area to stand. Annalise was playing outside and took to wide of a step and fell and hit her private area. She kept telling me that it hurt her pretty bad. So I took her diaper off only to find that she was bleeding down there and I couldn't figure out where or what happened. After a call to the after hours nurse they suggested I take her to the ER. I figured it would be a long trip but not long like this.

We got there at probably 8 and didn't leave there until 1:30am. I broke down in tears because it was the longest wait I've been in the ER ever. I've had to go to the ER a few times, and this was out of control. It was like 12:15am and Mike and I were sitting there just pissed and I stood up and was ready to go home. I was just gonna take her to her doctors that morning because I honestly had enough of watching all the people who came in hours after me be seen. I stood up told Mike we were leaving and they called us back, weird!

We were in the room for all of 10 minuets and were seen and discharged. Annalise tore a tiny spot inside but no where near needing stitches or caused any damage. They told me to give her 2 baths a day and she should be as good as new. WHAT ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS, I WAITED 5 HOURS FOR YOU TO TELL ME TO GIVE MY DAUGHTER A DAMN BATH!!! Mike and I talked to the nurse a little about how angry we were with the whole situation, she apologized... but hey she got paid!

So Annalise is recovering! She is really bruised but she is ok!

What else? Jared starts school on Wednesday and I'm so excited. His school we can see from our front yard. It's a stone throw away and it's brand new. I cannot believe that my son is going to be a 2nd grader. Seriously, I'm old!!!

Oh yes and I am no longer watching either of my nephews... weird had no idea that would happen. I knew Ryker but not Theron... so I'm in the process of finding a new job. Wish me luck!

I promise to post pics as soon as I take some. My camera is full and I got a new phone and the pictures suck. So I promise to get some up soon.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

There she is!!!

And by the way...

I'm officially a HOMEOWNER!!!

Today was the best day ever, minus the births of my to two children and when I got married!!! :)


Here we go again...

I'm gonna start with a warning there may be a swear word or two in here... for that I'm sorry but today I've had enough. I may end up deleting this, but for now you get to peak into my anger.

I am so sick and tired of people telling me that I have a perfect life. I've AGAIN never said otherwise. I am also not gonna stop living my life because others can't get their shit together.

  • I am so sorry that after so many trials and issues that I was able to find my husband whom I love dearly. But getting to where we are was NO easy task and the fact that we made it to where we are, I thank God everyday because it was and still is very hard.
  • I am so very sorry that I moved to Lacey... I did it for no other reason than for my family. For Mike, Jared and Annalise. I've made every attempt to keep people close. But the past month or so I've been a little distant because I truly have A LOT going on... but I guess since I'm perfect I have to be able to spread myself in a thousand places and get over my own issues.
  • I am so very sorry that I'm buying my very 1st house. I'm sorry that you think it's been so easy for us and I've just been handed keys and I've had to do nothing to get it. Cause if you'd at least ask you'd know how truly difficult it truly has been. I don't share all my trials with people cause some things are better left unsaid. But walking out of escrow yesterday should have made me extremely happy... but I was shocked by something that was not discussed and I left crying. Yes I figured it out and got everything fixed. But did I tell any of you that, no!
  • I'm sorry I have a relationship with my sister in laws. But truthfully they make an effort to spend time with me, the spend time with my children, and there is no F-ING drama ever. They do not get mad at me if I have a good day, they do not get mad at me for being tired. They do not judge me when I'm having a bad day. I'm married and because I'm married I have now 2 families. It would be selfish of me to not have a relationship with Mikes family only so I could spare others feelings because they are jealous of what the hell ever. I'm no different than I was in Lake Stevens... but maybe just maybe I'm a little happier because I actually have people to hang out with, and who have time for me.
  • I'm sorry that I've posted things on Facebook about being tired, and having a bad day. See I'm a stay at home mom which means while all you people out there who have jobs outside of the home actually have ADULTS to talk to. Sometimes I need to vent or I need an outlet. I had no idea in posting that I was tired on facebook that it would come across as bitching and that I have this horrible f-ing life. For once instead of people telling me to walk in there shoes, try walking in mine. I mean seriously do you need me to write down the things I do on a daily basis and then you tell me how I'm not supposed to be f-ing tired. It's not like I sit on the damn couch and eat bon bons all day watching shops! (only half the day)

I'm just so tired of dealing with things that I have no control over. I guess it's my fault in all reality because I've decided to post things out there for all to read... from my facebook account, to myspace and my blog. But when I look back on things I don't think I'm making myself out to be PERFECT, or bitching. I'm just being real, I'm living my life. I've never once tried to hide who I am to spare others. If you don't like me or the things I say STOP READING MY SHIT AND STOP BEING IN MY LIFE.

I've grown a lot over the years, I've been through a lot. I've had my heart broken and trampled on and I've made HORRIBLE decisions with money and the list could go on and on and on. However what I've decided to do is learn from the experience and make sure that I never make that mistake again. I have to set an example for my children, I have to make sure they now that it's ok to make mistakes... but you have to be able to learn from them and move on. If we all sat around waiting for others to pick themselves up then we'd be nothing. I cannot and will not live my life for anyone else...

Sorry if I've hurt anyone, but truthfully I'm so tired of being other peoples punching bags... so if you don't enjoy my ride get off and enjoy yours!

Monday, August 24, 2009


2 days people, 2 days!!!

Friday, August 21, 2009

I've hit the wall...

I cannot take anymore, I would like for this to be over... some1 please tell me there is an end in sight!!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Back in 1999...

So my 10 year reunion is coming up. It's set for Sept. 11th. I want to go but then I don't... for so many reasons I'm not gonna get into now. But another cause it's kinda expensive.

I'd like some peoples inputs on whether they went to the 10 year if not why... or any advice.


Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Sad, Sad, Sad...

So my Grandfather passed away today at 4am. He's been sick for a long while and recently had a heart attack. We knew the time would come.

I took the kids and hubby to see him a couple of weeks ago when he had a short transfer to the hospital in Everett. It was Mike and Jared's 2nd time ever seeing him and Anna's first time meeting him. I wish that they all could have met and seen each other on different terms. But at least they/we all got to see him.

I'm not sure yet how I feel about it all. Of course I'm sad, but right now I feel sorta in a state of shock. Death is not something I like, and this is really the 2nd time someone close in my family has passed. But mostly my heart is broken for my father and of course my Aunts.

I'll be hugging my family a little tighter today and I will be reflecting on my life and the life of my grandfather!


POSTS! Did anyone else notice that I posted my 200th post yesterday?

Well congrats to me!

Monday, August 10, 2009


So we are getting close to "closing" day and we are starting to get a little excited. When we got back from camping we went to check the house out. It finally got the carpet put in. It's looking great and I am trying to be patient for when we move in.

Keep saying your prayers that everything keeps on going the way it should... and once we get the keys I'll post all the pics!

Camping update...

So we made it, we all survived. Camping was great and we all had a great time. The food lasted, I don't think we had to much or to little. Everyone (even 1 person whom I didn't think would do well, did well). There was only 1 issue that I will not get into... we'll just say it almost cut the trip short but everyone just dealt with it and did there own things to avoid anymore issues.

One thing ALL of us could not stand were the bee's... OH THE BEE'S! I even had dreams about the darn bee's. It was horrible, and I mean horrible. Who would have thought that bee's LOVED meat. Every single time the hot dogs came out or the bacon we were attacked by bee's. I'm pretty certain that my daughter was stung twice. Once on the ear and once on the lip. The poor girl was terrified of bee's and every time one came close to here she totally melted! At a couple of points during the trip we had to put some of their favorite foods on a plate and walk it a little further from the campsite so they would go eat away from us. It was INSANE and that was a big reason I may never go back to that campsite again.

Mike and I got to spend some time alone without the kids. We went on a walk and went down to the beach and just sat and talked for a while. It was nice to get that time together.

So in short everyone had a great time and Annalise and Jared are AWESOME campers! I'll post pics once I get some from Mandy.

Sunday, August 2, 2009


I want some input. We are going camping and will be gone for 4 days and 3 nights.

Someone give me an answer here...

How much do you think should be spent on food for 4 days and 3 nights excluding booze?

If I get some answers, I'll explain why on the next post!!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009


It's to hot for my liking... so hot in fact when I was watching the news and they said that Wednesday could be as hot as 101 degree's I seriously almost cried.

I have 4 kids in my care and I was a sweating pig just getting them into the car yesterday to go run errands. We ended up staying at Mandy's house to try and stay a little cooler. It seems my tiny little house is a cooking pot!!!

The past 2 mornings I've woken up HOT... and I hate that feeling. Usually at nights u get to recoup and feel better. Yeah so not the case.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


My son is 7 today. Oh my gosh did I actually type that right? 7 years old???

Where in the world did the time go?

I love my little man so dearly and am so proud of what a young man he's become.


Thursday, July 9, 2009


It seems like when I post things here it goes up in flames... so I've been a little guarded, even deleted some post's because I don't know why... But things have calmed down a little in our Crazy home. I think I've found peace in what we are doing and where we are going. It seems we go through hurdles a lot, and as much as I hate having to go through them... they obviously teach you somethings.

So Mike will be gone this weekend hiking with our friend Aaron. I've been very anxious about him going but since this blog likes to ruin things I won't say why. I'm excited for Mike, he needs this time in the woods to collect his thoughts and just be by himself. Just praying for a safe trip and a safe return.

Annalise is doing a little better. But as the days go by I realize how attached she is to me and how much worse it is getting. I love love love how close we are. But honestly going to take a shower has been very drama filled with her. She is just going through some stuff and she loves to throw tantrums and even better she LOVES to scream at the top of her lungs. We obviously have a lot of work to do, but either way I love her with every ounce of my soul!

Jared Jared Jared... he is almost 7. Can you freaking believe that he is almost 7? I can't, honestly I have NO IDEA where 7 years went. My little baby boy is no baby boy, he is almost as tall as me. He lost another tooth two days ago, and every tooth he looses he looses another part of being a baby. :( I am so proud of my little man!!!

On another "oh my gosh moment"... July 13th will be 8 years since our first date. OH MY GOSH!!!

Monday, June 29, 2009

I have...

A sick baby girl, she's been throwing up all day. I hope she gets over this fast. Because my poor baby is sick I'll be staying home while Daddy and Jared head to Oregon for the sort vacation with Mandy and Jason.

As much as I would LOVE to go... I'd rather stay home then bring a sick baby in the car. So here's to a fast recovery! (maybe that's why she was so whinny yesterday, today I'm eating crow!)

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Jet Plane...

today I feel like I want to get on a jet plane and never come back... Sometimes it gets to be to much for me. My husband isn't feeling well and is taking it out on me... and it's not like it's been for the past couple of days. I can handle days, but weeks- DONE! My daughter has decided that she is gonna whine about EVERYTHING and honestly I want to pull my f-ing hair out-DONE! My son pulls at my strings and my buttons all day, he tries to see how far he can go and honestly-DONE!

I am constantly being told what I could do better, what I'm not doing right. I feel like I don't want to go anywhere with my children because they just aren't being the best lately. I don't even want to go into the things I'm dealing with in other aspects because then I feel like I'll be whining and taking what I have for granted. (because I've been told I do that to.)

At some point in my life I'd like for someone to tell me something good about me. I'd like for the positive to be pointed out not the negative. I'd like for the stars to line up just right and my kids not push every button possible, not totally be disrespectful... just be the happy kids they usually are. I'd like my house to STAY CLEAN, I'd like to NEVER do laundry again. I'd like to NEVER be compared to another human being again... I'd like for one day of peace or more... I'd like to be the apple in someones eye!!! Hopefully this to shall pass and we'll be better tomorrow.


Thursday, June 18, 2009

1st order!

So I promoted myself on my blog, Facebook and Myspace. Out of that I got 1 order and I just completed it. 6 roses for tomorrow! I feel very accomplished and very proud! Here's to more, pass the word around!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I want to...

tell you about the new house... But I am honestly afraid to jinx it. Things got crazy stressful for about 4 or 5 days, we found a solution... Everything seems to be going in the right direction. But this has been a dream of Mike and I's for a very very long time. It has taken us years to get on top of things and FINALLY be able to do this. It's been small baby steps for us. But we are so close I can smell it and if by posting anything (to much) about it jinx's it... I'm gonna be so mad.

So you all are really gonna have to wait until we close August 26th. I know that's gonna be hard, cause it's hard for me... but you'll love the surprise as much as we do!

Sunday, June 14, 2009


So I am starting up a little candy shop... I'll be opening it up on Etsy pretty soon, but wanted to get the word around first on all the sites! :) My mother in law got me started on this. I have been practicing over the past month or so... I debut them at Jared's baseball game. And here are a few I've done today.

They are hand painted chocolate's and they are so cool. I can do custom orders for birthday's, weddings, well pretty much anything. I am also going to be doing bouquets in cups and stuff... I can have them shipped to you or wherever you want them to go.

Feel free to ask me ANY question and we can discuss price if you are interested. If you aren't but know someone that is, please pass the word around.

Friday, June 12, 2009

I think...

we will be homeowners as of August 26th... don't want to get into to much cause I don't want to jinx it... but I think that's when it'll be. (it's still being built) :)

No one said...

Buying a house was easy... but this is CRAZY!

I may have a ton of gray hair after this. Between Annalise being sick and this whole house thing... put me in a padded room!

Thursday, June 11, 2009


still waiting...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009





Monday, June 8, 2009

I'm at the end of my ropes...

My darling daughter is sick and has been for the past couple of days. As much as I have sympathy for her and her illness... the whining (oh the whining) is wearing on me so much. The littlest things throw her over the edge and nights, oh nights are fun.

I cannot wait until she's better, oh how I love my bubbly happy baby girl (I do also LOVE LOVE my sick baby to, if you had any questions)!!!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Tomorrow is the day,

I Hope! We are going to look at houses and we are hoping for a certain one and we are hoping to make an offer tomorrow. We don't have much time before our lease is up and so we really cannot wait to become homeowners!

Words really cannot express how excited, hopeful and nervous we are.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Hot, hot, and


I am in no mood to post. But wanted to let you guys know that hopefully soon Mike and I will be buying a home. There really are NO words to express how truly happy and grown up we are and have become!

Sunday, May 24, 2009


I am going to be opening a shop on Etsy pretty soon... it's gonna be homemade candy... I'll post more details soon... I've had an extremely long day and I'm super tired and don't have the will for this blog today. Until then, enjoy the sun!

Thursday, May 21, 2009


So lets go back to about 2 months ago. It was late in the night, Annalise had been asleep for an hour or so. All of a sudden she started flopping around on the bed. At first I thought she was just kicking off her covers (she doesn't like to be covered up)... but then a couple of minuets later she did it again and again and again. She'd kick her legs up in the air, her body would tense up and then she'd be done. My heart started pounding and I freaked out.

I went and got Mike whom I think was watching tv at the time. He came in and watched her but he didn't seem to concerned. I WAS FREAKING OUT! We woke her up to see if she did it while she was awake (she did not)... so after a few she went back to sleep. As I had fallen into sleep she started again and I went and got Mike and this time I was crying because I had no idea what was going on. He grabbed the computer and we laid in bed looking at what it could possibly be. He was thinking that her tummy hurt and it was just a reaction to that. All I could think was taking her the ER my baby is having seizures.

We woke her up again and let her watch her movie while we talked and Mike calmed me down. We were up until about 2 or 3 and we finally let her go back to sleep. She did not do it the rest of the night. Since that night it's been in the back of my mind, but I wasn't as worried... maybe it was just a freak thing, maybe she was teething and it was her reaction to the pain.

Fast forward to 3 nights ago. 11pm she started again. I didn't go straight to Mike cause he is REALLY passive when it comes to anything and really pisses me off. So I went and got the computer and looked up all possible things that could be going on. I let it go on for 2 hours and I could not stand it anymore. I woke Mike up and he came and woke Annalise up. She was not a happy camper at all. She did not want to be awake and cried and screamed at us the whole time. After about 2o minuets or so we let her go back to sleep and she didn't do it the rest of the evening.

I took her to the doctors yesterday. For a rash she has and the night thing. The doctor didn't seem to concerned either... which really pisses me off, but I'll bear with the damn doctor for the time being. I did notice a trend in the two instances. Annalise had stayed up late both times and was overly tired. So the doctor thinks she may have issues with being overly tired. She wants me to record her doing it (if she does again), so she can see exactly what it is she is doing.

So for the time being I'm not gonna stress, but if she does it again I'm gonna be mad. Please pray that it's nothing terrible and she'll just grow out of it.

Friday, May 15, 2009

I'm bad...

Haven't gone to the gym in 7 days. Been sick all freaking week and I'm miserable. So is Annalise, she has a horse voice. So sad. Last night we were both up all night coughing.

Tomorrow we have another baseball game. Then we are going to the Lacey Fun Fair... then off to do some scrapbooking! I've been collecting a few things here and there, so lets see if I can get a book put together by myself!

Well our household is gonna be going through some changes. I'm not gonna go into it right now, but I'll fill you all in later when I have a moment!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Poo #2

Annalise went potty in the toilet again this morning. We were hanging with Mike in the bedroom and she got this look on her face and said, "poop". I asked her if she wanted to go on the toilet and she ran to the living room. (Where we have the training potty seat, we are trying to get Ryker to go in the potty!) So I sat her down and she was getting distracted. So I put one of her movies on, and little did I know a few minuets later she poo'd!!!!

I'm so proud of her, she is AMAZING!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Oh did I mention?

Oh the list keeps getting bigger...

My mother in law makes chocolate suckers and I'm starting a shop for her on Etsy... and will be making them to! I will be making a trip to her house in the next week or so to set up her shop... and then I'm gonna learn how to make these treats and will be part of the business!


Sunday, May 10, 2009


So Mike started playing softball with some of the people at his work. I guess they are starting a team. Anyway, Mike really wants me to play also. (I used to play when I was younger)... So for mothers day he got me some softball stuff. A glove, balls and a PINK baseball shirt! Mandy also got a mitt so she could play with us to.

We went to the park yesterday and played around, I got to hit a few balls... surprisingly enough I can still hit and I can still catch the ball. Even though I was a bit scared of being hit by the ball, I did pretty good for not playing in YEARS!

So there is another thing our family has started doing. It was actually awesome today. Mandy, Tia, all the kids and Mike went to the park again today (mothers day) and hit some balls around. I sat there and watched my husband coach Jared and just fell in love with my family all over again. We've evolved into a better family. It seems to get a little better everyday. Getting outdoors is helping me with my stress and my migraines... and my depression! (maybe my doctor was right).

So I've started working out at the gym, softball and scrapbooking... on top of 4 kids and keeping my household up. Lets see how I do?


So I have started my new hobby of scrapbooks! My sis-in laws and I made one for my mother in law... and I got the bug. So Tia and I went to the store and bought some stuff, and then we went back with Mandy and got some more. And for Mothers Day... I got a gift card for the scrapbook store down the road. I went there today after our mothers day celebration and got a few more things. My head is spinning with all the things I want to do.

But I am gonna start with just 1 book and a small book. It's gonna be a theme of Summer... So we'll see how that goes and I'll keep you updated. I am soooooooo excited!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Check this out... it's amazing!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Day 4

Went on elliptical for 15 minuets... almost died. Then on the treadmill for 10... gym kicked my butt, thought I was gonna pass out!!! Still another defeat in the gym, is it ever gonna get easier???

Monday, May 4, 2009

Day 3!

Mike and I went today... we worked on legs and cardio. It went fine, nothing to exciting to write about... at least I'm still going, right?

Sunday, May 3, 2009

This week...

So this week is our every other week family dinners. I've got Tuesdays (as I always do)... and my day I'm making a Mexican macaroni dinner. I'm also going to shoot for working out 3 days. Last week was only 2. I hurt my arm and it's starting to mend so I'll be good to go for this week.

I also started scrap booking yesterday and it's fun and I'm having fun!!!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Day 2!

I did it, I went by myself.

I went on the elliptical trainer for 10 mins of hell and then on to the treadmill for 15 mins... in that 15 mins I ran about 2 mins and walked fast for the rest. Oh the sweat was puring off, but I'm starting to feel better now... and guess what? My husband didn't think I'd actually do it and he was proud but mad. Guess he's pretty competitive so now he's gotta go and work out! :)

What's gonna happen for day 3?

Day 1

So I Mike and I went to the gym yesterday... I survived and may even try to go by myself today. If anyone knows me at all knows that I don't like the gym and I don't like going by myself. I'm really self conscious about that for some reason. But Mike was trying to pump me up a little yesterday and I really have a goal in mind so I'm gonna try.

I may start posting blogs about my progress but we'll see how the first week or so goes first!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Poo Poo in the potty!!!

Gotta say I'm sooooooo FREAKING excited. My daughter just went poo poo in the potty!

We're having a party!!!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


So Mike and I originally signed up for rock climbing... and as much as we loved it, it was very hard for us to ever go. They did not have child care and we couldn't always ask my sister in law to watch the kids so we could go.

So NOW we've signed up to a gym... and I am gonna get my a** is shape. I really really need to. Wish us luck!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009


I was afraid of camping with my two children... However it was fun and it turned out so much better than I pictured. Well minus it being 30 degree's and I had the crappiest sleeping bag and poor poor Anna was cold.

Saturday Jared had his first game, which was AMAZING! When he went up to bat I bawled. I was so proud and so happy and it brought back so many memories from me being in softball.

After baseball we went to the house and got some blankets for me and Annalise and got Mikes boat. Back at camp we had a great time. Anna's first time on the boat. Mike and Jared's 1st fish of the year.

I do have some pics but I don't have time to post them.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Upcoming events...

We've been busy, I've been overwhelmed... and well I've had a migraine/headache for over a week. We are adjusting to life with 4 kids. It's gotten better, but it's still very hectic and busy all the time. Jared has been having baseball practice and has his 1st game this Saturday... we'll see how it goes!

Tomorrow we leave for our first Moline camping trip (I am so nervous). Saturday we'll get up early, eat breakfast and then head to Jared's game at 10. Then we'll head back to finish up camping. Get up Sunday morning eat breakfast and head back North for baseball pictures! (Seriously busy busy all the time!)

As far as my blogging goes. I've been trying to decide if I want to keep it up. I've felt this lack of interest from my readers (lack of comments)... I write not only for myself but for others to, plus I just haven't been feeling up to doing much lately. So I'll let you all know whether to come back and check in or whether I'm gonna shut this baby down!

Until then I'll try and take photo's... but it'll have to be from my phone cause my momma has my disk! :) and I'll post our camping adventure when I have a moment! Ta Ta for now!!!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Taking a break!

So I know I haven't been blogging a lot lately... but to be honest I've been spending to much time on the computer. I'm going to (try) take a break from the computer for a bit. I haven't been feeling good, dealing with migraines and now I'm dizzy... so I'm gonna try and recoup and then also spend some more time with my kids. I've felt so distant and lost lately, so its time for me to get back into the swing of things.

I'll be back, don't you people worry... but until then you all are in my thoughts!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Here's a few, will post more in a few!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


Hello everyone. So today the kiddo's and I played outside and I got a ton of really cute pictures. I have to edit them tomorrow and then I'll post some on here... betcha can't wait for that huh?

Well I gotta go deal with a 1 year old who has decided she is to big for sleep. Mike took a turn on settling her down, I may need to go try again!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Boobs, boobs, boobs!

So here's your update... I went to the doctors and before I tell you what happened I'll tell you what happened yesterday.

I woke up with more pain in my breast. This time it was lower and a new lump and much bigger. I felt around and the other two were still there but they didn't hurt any longer. So of course I'm pissed, I had hoped the antibiotics would have made them go away, and WHY is it hurting in a different spot and why is the lump bigger?

Back to my appointment. I talked with the doc and he felt around. This is what he says... He thinks it's something with my glands, he is not completely alarmed nor is he just gonna shrug it off. He suggested we wait about 4-6 weeks and come back and have him check them again. He'll see if they've remained the same or gone away or gotten bigger. In the meantime he suggested I not worry and if I feel uneasy about it or they get bigger or start hurting more I can come in right away and get a mammogram and an ultrasound. Like I said he's not overly concerned but doesn't want me to think that he's not worried... but he feels it's nothing but something with my glands and shouldn't be something to worry about.

So I don't know how I feel about this. I'll say 1 thing that I recently found out from my mother and grandmother. My great grandmother had breast cancer and my grandmothers sister has breast cancer... so does that scare me just a little bit more? YOU BET! I've never in my whole 28 years of life ever had any issues with my breasts minus the 1 time I had mastitis. Now all of a sudden I'm dealing with lumps and pain and I don't want my mind to go where it has gone but honestly this is pretty scary to have in the back of your mind. So far I've talked to 3 people about this (1 is my hubby) and they've all said I should just go get the tests done and not wait the 4-6 weeks, just so I can have peace of mind. At this point I don't know what I'm gonna do, I just wanted to give you all an update and I'll keep you posted as I know more.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Denver, CO.

So my husband is in Denver this week for work meetings... leaving me to do everything from cub scouts, to baseball to all the kids. I feel like I'm spinning, but we are surviving!!!

So blogging may be put off a little longer while he's away.

I will try and update tomorrow after my doctors appointment and let you know how things are in the boob front! :)

Till then, chat at cha later!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Spring anyone?

So just when I start to get back into the swing of things, Annalise gets the flu! Not much fun to have a 1 year old sick. She is just now starting to feel better... I've been working on Spring cleaning this weekend and am hoping to finish that up today!

Friday, February 27, 2009

A few things...

So there is my new haircut... I always do drastic things and I really love my hair. I'm gonna go get some highlights in my hair in about 3 weeks!!!

And on to some other news, I'm posting it here for some prayers. 4 days ago I started having sharp pain in my breast and then I noticed that I had two lumps. They hurt to touch. I figured I had mastitis again. So I rested and it kept getting bigger. So yesterday I went to the doctors... here's all the info I have at this time........

He's treating me for mastitis but I have to return when my antibiotics run out (10 days) to see if the 2 lumps are gone. He is slightly concerned because I don't have any other signs of mastitis (I have had it before)... which makes me nervous but I'm just trying not to go there until I have to. Until then I'm just gonna pray that the meds I'm on help and the bumps go away and I'm all good!

Ok well I have to get some cleaning done while the babies sleep. I will keep you all posted and thanks for you prayers in the meantime!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

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I'm not! :) I really hope my readers don't give up on me, I promise I'm still here... well sorta! I think about blogging everyday, but I'm still having a hard time adjusting to all these kids. Who would have thought adding just 1 more kid to the mix would cause such craziness?

I don't even know where to begin. All I know is that I had to go to the doctors because my craziness has gotten worse. Some of you know and some of you don't and I guess I'll just air my "dirty" laundry here. I struggle with depression, migraines and so much more! :) So I've been able to keep my depression at bay (under control), for the past year or so, but lately it's been showing it's very ugly head. So I made a doctors appointment and talked with the doc. We've upped the dose of my medication, I have to go back and discuss birth control, migraines and a few other things next month. It never seems to end. Upping the medicine has proved to be difficult and has taken some adjusting to it, but I'm starting to feel better both physically and mentally. Hopefully we'll get my migraines taken care of and I may be alright people! :)

Jared will be starting baseball soon which will cause us to be even more busy. But he's doing good and being as good a helper as his little 6 year old heart can be. He talks all day and all night and I catch myself telling him to take a breath and let my brain process everything he's said for the past 24 hours. He is getting so big and I was looking at him last night laying on the couch with me, and honestly I don't know where my little boy went. How could he change so fast?

Annalise is AMAZING. She is talking soooo much. Right now her favorite word is NO. It is so annoying, but it is so cute. It's so hard for me to get angry with her because she is so flipping cute. I wish I could sum up how much I adore this little girl, but honestly there are no words. She fills my heart with so much laughter, joy and amazement... I am in awe of her!

My nephews... Ryker has been sick and I've been so scared of getting sick that I may be making myself sick. Theron is a HANDFUL and by the end of the day with him I feel as if I may have a heart attack. We have good days and bad and they are starting to work themselves out, I just pray as he gets older, it gets easier!

Mike... well my dear husband, I love! He'll be going to Denver, Co. (I think) in 2 weeks for some meetings for work or something. He's been super busy with work and super busy with irritating me! I love him, I really do. I seem to take my frustrations with the kids out on him... but he's been doing better at helping with the kids and helping my battles with Jared (which have eased up a little). I am in desperate need of some alone time with my husband though. He has gone fishing the past 2 weeks and has caught no fish. He took Jared with him one of those times and Jared liked it, but it was a little to cold for my boy!

Well I really pray that you readers of mine don't give up on me. I need to keep up on this and I'm gonna try, just bare with me while I adjust to this crazy task I've taken on! It has been so much harder than I could have ever imagined. Tomorrow I'm going to get my haircut and I'm thinking of doing something drastic, lets see if I can do it. Until then, enjoy!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Rock Climbing...

So as a family minus Anna cause she's to small (so sorry Annalise)... Mike, Jared and I have taken up rock climbing. I've rocked climbed a lot when I was younger in youth group and I've always loved it. Mike and I have been trying to figure out what we could do to get in shape (or whatever) and have it be fun to. We came up with rock climbing.

We joined a gym for rock climbing, got our gear and up up we went! So far so good and it's a good step forward for our family.

More to come...

Saturday, February 7, 2009


I am so sorry all my fellow readers that I've been MIA for so long. To say things have been crazy, well that would be an understatement... and even now I don't have a lot of time to touch base.

All I can say, is I'm nuts... put me in a white suit and lock me in a padded room.

I will post more on all the things that are going on once I can breath. Until then I'm going to go take a shower and then load up the kiddo's and take Jared for sign ups for baseball.

I promise I'll be back, I am so sorry!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


So I guess I forgot to tell everyone what happened in my puppy search!

Well I guess reality got the better of me and I realized that maybe just maybe I was taking on a bit more than I could possible handle. So I will be waiting on the dog search for a while. I will be watching my newest nephew Theron starting February 2nd and then I'll have 4 children to deal with... so adding a puppy into the mix might make me a little crazy, A LITTLE!?

So I'm not as crazy as I once thought, although some days I feel as if I'm going to jump off a bridge! :)

Monday, January 19, 2009

It's cold

But we have to get outside... fun day at the park!!!

Inauguration 1st

Are you watching this Inauguration?

I can say that I don't think I've seen one as long as I've been alive. This one is historic and I'm looking forward to it. Every time I think about the meaning of what is about to take place I honestly get shivers. This year, (well 2008) while the elections were going on I was really involved. Mike and I would discuss and talk about what we thought... and the outcome was what I had hoped for.

At this point I don't think it really matters if this was the person you voted for... it is what it is and it's a HUGE thing. I'm excited, yet nervous about what changes are in store. I really really hope that Obama is able to help us mend the hole that has been dug.

Tomorrow starts a new day!

Saturday, January 17, 2009


Holy crap... My son wanted to go to the Monster Truck show in Tacoma, but one of his grandmothers was unable to take him. He was upset but my mom and I decided we would do something this next weekend while Mike was in Eastern WA. hunting. My mom sent me a text this morning. "A 6 year old boy died while attending the Monster truck show..."

WHAT!? My 6 year old was supposed to be there, that could have been my six year old.

Honestly I'm speechless and sad! How could that happen? And as sad as my son was for not being able to go, I'm happy he didn't and he's still alive!!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Oh my golly...

I have never been prouder of my son...

Today while opening his backpack to go through his papers from school... I stumbled upon a note from the principal (ARE YOU SERIOUS). He got an award, I started crying.

He got a QUALITY WORK award for the category of writing. His work will be displayed on the bulletin board outside the office for the next month.

The only words I have is WOW! That boy amazes me and makes me prouder and prouder everyday!

Finally, 3 months late...

I took Annalise to her 12 month well baby check up... 3 months late. She is weighing in at 24lbs. She is in the 75% for weight and height and she has a big head. They tell me she is as smart as a 19 month old is, she is very very smart!

She is good and healthy and we are happy about that. She did however get 5 shots (poor thing) and we are officially going to be trying to kick her from breast feeding... although she is one strong willed baby I don't know how this will go!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


I may be getting a puppy... I'm excited, we'll see what happens. I'd say what I'm looking at but I'll keep that to myself until I get it(if I get it). It's between two I found and I'm waiting for a response in email from one and I'm calling the other tomorrow. Either one is as cute as pie and I think I'm S-T-U-P-I-D for even wanting or doing this. Hi I have a 6 year old, a 1 year old... I watch my 2 1/2 yr old nephew and will be watching my 1 month old nephew soon!


Happy New Year!

Here are some pictures from New Years Eve. We went to Tiana's house and had such a great time. Everyone had some drinks, the boys played some Rock band... and Mike pretended he was the best singer ever!!!

I cannot wait to see what 2009 has in store!