Wednesday, August 26, 2009

There she is!!!

And by the way...

I'm officially a HOMEOWNER!!!

Today was the best day ever, minus the births of my to two children and when I got married!!! :)


Here we go again...

I'm gonna start with a warning there may be a swear word or two in here... for that I'm sorry but today I've had enough. I may end up deleting this, but for now you get to peak into my anger.

I am so sick and tired of people telling me that I have a perfect life. I've AGAIN never said otherwise. I am also not gonna stop living my life because others can't get their shit together.

  • I am so sorry that after so many trials and issues that I was able to find my husband whom I love dearly. But getting to where we are was NO easy task and the fact that we made it to where we are, I thank God everyday because it was and still is very hard.
  • I am so very sorry that I moved to Lacey... I did it for no other reason than for my family. For Mike, Jared and Annalise. I've made every attempt to keep people close. But the past month or so I've been a little distant because I truly have A LOT going on... but I guess since I'm perfect I have to be able to spread myself in a thousand places and get over my own issues.
  • I am so very sorry that I'm buying my very 1st house. I'm sorry that you think it's been so easy for us and I've just been handed keys and I've had to do nothing to get it. Cause if you'd at least ask you'd know how truly difficult it truly has been. I don't share all my trials with people cause some things are better left unsaid. But walking out of escrow yesterday should have made me extremely happy... but I was shocked by something that was not discussed and I left crying. Yes I figured it out and got everything fixed. But did I tell any of you that, no!
  • I'm sorry I have a relationship with my sister in laws. But truthfully they make an effort to spend time with me, the spend time with my children, and there is no F-ING drama ever. They do not get mad at me if I have a good day, they do not get mad at me for being tired. They do not judge me when I'm having a bad day. I'm married and because I'm married I have now 2 families. It would be selfish of me to not have a relationship with Mikes family only so I could spare others feelings because they are jealous of what the hell ever. I'm no different than I was in Lake Stevens... but maybe just maybe I'm a little happier because I actually have people to hang out with, and who have time for me.
  • I'm sorry that I've posted things on Facebook about being tired, and having a bad day. See I'm a stay at home mom which means while all you people out there who have jobs outside of the home actually have ADULTS to talk to. Sometimes I need to vent or I need an outlet. I had no idea in posting that I was tired on facebook that it would come across as bitching and that I have this horrible f-ing life. For once instead of people telling me to walk in there shoes, try walking in mine. I mean seriously do you need me to write down the things I do on a daily basis and then you tell me how I'm not supposed to be f-ing tired. It's not like I sit on the damn couch and eat bon bons all day watching shops! (only half the day)

I'm just so tired of dealing with things that I have no control over. I guess it's my fault in all reality because I've decided to post things out there for all to read... from my facebook account, to myspace and my blog. But when I look back on things I don't think I'm making myself out to be PERFECT, or bitching. I'm just being real, I'm living my life. I've never once tried to hide who I am to spare others. If you don't like me or the things I say STOP READING MY SHIT AND STOP BEING IN MY LIFE.

I've grown a lot over the years, I've been through a lot. I've had my heart broken and trampled on and I've made HORRIBLE decisions with money and the list could go on and on and on. However what I've decided to do is learn from the experience and make sure that I never make that mistake again. I have to set an example for my children, I have to make sure they now that it's ok to make mistakes... but you have to be able to learn from them and move on. If we all sat around waiting for others to pick themselves up then we'd be nothing. I cannot and will not live my life for anyone else...

Sorry if I've hurt anyone, but truthfully I'm so tired of being other peoples punching bags... so if you don't enjoy my ride get off and enjoy yours!

Monday, August 24, 2009


2 days people, 2 days!!!

Friday, August 21, 2009

I've hit the wall...

I cannot take anymore, I would like for this to be over... some1 please tell me there is an end in sight!!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Back in 1999...

So my 10 year reunion is coming up. It's set for Sept. 11th. I want to go but then I don't... for so many reasons I'm not gonna get into now. But another cause it's kinda expensive.

I'd like some peoples inputs on whether they went to the 10 year if not why... or any advice.


Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Sad, Sad, Sad...

So my Grandfather passed away today at 4am. He's been sick for a long while and recently had a heart attack. We knew the time would come.

I took the kids and hubby to see him a couple of weeks ago when he had a short transfer to the hospital in Everett. It was Mike and Jared's 2nd time ever seeing him and Anna's first time meeting him. I wish that they all could have met and seen each other on different terms. But at least they/we all got to see him.

I'm not sure yet how I feel about it all. Of course I'm sad, but right now I feel sorta in a state of shock. Death is not something I like, and this is really the 2nd time someone close in my family has passed. But mostly my heart is broken for my father and of course my Aunts.

I'll be hugging my family a little tighter today and I will be reflecting on my life and the life of my grandfather!


POSTS! Did anyone else notice that I posted my 200th post yesterday?

Well congrats to me!

Monday, August 10, 2009


So we are getting close to "closing" day and we are starting to get a little excited. When we got back from camping we went to check the house out. It finally got the carpet put in. It's looking great and I am trying to be patient for when we move in.

Keep saying your prayers that everything keeps on going the way it should... and once we get the keys I'll post all the pics!

Camping update...

So we made it, we all survived. Camping was great and we all had a great time. The food lasted, I don't think we had to much or to little. Everyone (even 1 person whom I didn't think would do well, did well). There was only 1 issue that I will not get into... we'll just say it almost cut the trip short but everyone just dealt with it and did there own things to avoid anymore issues.

One thing ALL of us could not stand were the bee's... OH THE BEE'S! I even had dreams about the darn bee's. It was horrible, and I mean horrible. Who would have thought that bee's LOVED meat. Every single time the hot dogs came out or the bacon we were attacked by bee's. I'm pretty certain that my daughter was stung twice. Once on the ear and once on the lip. The poor girl was terrified of bee's and every time one came close to here she totally melted! At a couple of points during the trip we had to put some of their favorite foods on a plate and walk it a little further from the campsite so they would go eat away from us. It was INSANE and that was a big reason I may never go back to that campsite again.

Mike and I got to spend some time alone without the kids. We went on a walk and went down to the beach and just sat and talked for a while. It was nice to get that time together.

So in short everyone had a great time and Annalise and Jared are AWESOME campers! I'll post pics once I get some from Mandy.

Sunday, August 2, 2009


I want some input. We are going camping and will be gone for 4 days and 3 nights.

Someone give me an answer here...

How much do you think should be spent on food for 4 days and 3 nights excluding booze?

If I get some answers, I'll explain why on the next post!!!