Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Are you still there...

I'm not! :) I really hope my readers don't give up on me, I promise I'm still here... well sorta! I think about blogging everyday, but I'm still having a hard time adjusting to all these kids. Who would have thought adding just 1 more kid to the mix would cause such craziness?

I don't even know where to begin. All I know is that I had to go to the doctors because my craziness has gotten worse. Some of you know and some of you don't and I guess I'll just air my "dirty" laundry here. I struggle with depression, migraines and so much more! :) So I've been able to keep my depression at bay (under control), for the past year or so, but lately it's been showing it's very ugly head. So I made a doctors appointment and talked with the doc. We've upped the dose of my medication, I have to go back and discuss birth control, migraines and a few other things next month. It never seems to end. Upping the medicine has proved to be difficult and has taken some adjusting to it, but I'm starting to feel better both physically and mentally. Hopefully we'll get my migraines taken care of and I may be alright people! :)

Jared will be starting baseball soon which will cause us to be even more busy. But he's doing good and being as good a helper as his little 6 year old heart can be. He talks all day and all night and I catch myself telling him to take a breath and let my brain process everything he's said for the past 24 hours. He is getting so big and I was looking at him last night laying on the couch with me, and honestly I don't know where my little boy went. How could he change so fast?

Annalise is AMAZING. She is talking soooo much. Right now her favorite word is NO. It is so annoying, but it is so cute. It's so hard for me to get angry with her because she is so flipping cute. I wish I could sum up how much I adore this little girl, but honestly there are no words. She fills my heart with so much laughter, joy and amazement... I am in awe of her!

My nephews... Ryker has been sick and I've been so scared of getting sick that I may be making myself sick. Theron is a HANDFUL and by the end of the day with him I feel as if I may have a heart attack. We have good days and bad and they are starting to work themselves out, I just pray as he gets older, it gets easier!

Mike... well my dear husband, I love! He'll be going to Denver, Co. (I think) in 2 weeks for some meetings for work or something. He's been super busy with work and super busy with irritating me! I love him, I really do. I seem to take my frustrations with the kids out on him... but he's been doing better at helping with the kids and helping my battles with Jared (which have eased up a little). I am in desperate need of some alone time with my husband though. He has gone fishing the past 2 weeks and has caught no fish. He took Jared with him one of those times and Jared liked it, but it was a little to cold for my boy!

Well I really pray that you readers of mine don't give up on me. I need to keep up on this and I'm gonna try, just bare with me while I adjust to this crazy task I've taken on! It has been so much harder than I could have ever imagined. Tomorrow I'm going to get my haircut and I'm thinking of doing something drastic, lets see if I can do it. Until then, enjoy!


Anonymous said...

Your back :) Sounds like life has been a little crazy for you guys. I'm sure adjusting to watching a baby and toddler has not been easy! That's a lot. I'm sorry to hear you've been having a hard time with depression but am glad you went in a got some help! I hope things will get better for you. I will keep you in my prayers. Depression just has a way of sucking you in that's for sure! And migranes...ugh! Well girl I love ya and hope things will start to work themselves our for you. I'm here if you need me.
Lots of love, Danielle

lauraslifetoday said...

It's good to hear from you.. and I love your willingness to share with us readers who truly care for you and hope for your wellness!! Maybe spring will help you feel a little better too. It is no wonder you are tired, stressed and overwhelmed. One child is hard to deal with. You're watching 4?!?! You deserve some "me" time, so tell Mike when he gets back that you are leaving him with the kids and having a girls weekend with Laura in Spokane ;-)!! Keep us posted when you can.